http://anti_christ.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] anti-christ.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] paixaorpg2006-04-02 10:11 pm
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Wise men Wonder while Strong men Die [Open]

Character(s): Anti X, Saix
Content: Anti X returns to his masterpiece, meaning to find the added extra stroke of blue and black to the canvas; Saix.
Setting: Center of Paixao
Time: Saturday Night
Warnings: Bloody gore-ish Scenery, Anti X




It was the tricky things such as these that sundered the insides of the devil's mind. The existence as a whole and its purpose; the question of why.

Every human fell prey to it. But he was not human, he was an Experiment gone wrong. A shadow brought to life from dark powers, and given a face from injections of light. So why did the question keep trying to dominate him? Why did it break apart the few delicate pieces of understanding his subsistence allowed him, and scattered everything so far away out of reach it was a struggling battle to even remember his own name every now and then, forcing doubts to any of its truths?

Why did he care? Why had he even the ability to?

He didn't. It was all in the mind. Everything, everyone, their words - it was all in his mind. None in a sense of delusion, but in a sense of where they resided after imageries and sounds long faded, where they could still be brought up and seen - Inside his mind. The trickmaster to it all. The crevice that never ceased to tease him, taunt him of reaching so close to comprehensions but corrupt and disfigure it in poisons of hate, pulling away the right puzzle piece the second a blind reach is made for it.

Why...?

Axel was appearing again.

Barricades of fire almost obscured the creature's vision until it was reminded the source wasn't real, but seen from inside. He wanted it gone nonetheless - would actually claw in his own eyes if it meant to rid him of it all. It was long time now, excessively overdue that the bright horrid light of the fire was to be put out and destroyed, gone from his reflective optics. Dead. But would that answer everything?

Would it really?

No... At least, he didn't think so. Did someone? Did anyone know the answers? Did he even trust anyone enough to believe their voice?

Ah. That face in his mind... Yes.

Which is what brought Anti X back to the grave of the slaughtered - his masterpiece - as the essence of his instincts pulled him to this place after having called out to the man in his vision's shadow. A connection which only existed from remembrance of the mutual understanding, and what had been allowed in the latter's eyes; The man had probably wanted to be found again.

The mutilations, Anti X noticed passively after re-materializing, still polluted the center, the putrid air having had evolved into a new level of foul copper and soured death - but it bothered the shadow in the least, not even a glimpse of care ever being visible in his nature to the sight, feet carelessly stepping on tainted flesh towards the hooded figure ahead.

Saix had to have the answers.

The creature decided the Moon Demon Man had to know how it was all going to end.



[ooc: This piece was shaky on purpose, as you can see, Anti X's mind is not really all too stable. It's alright if understanding this was hard, it was probably just as difficult for him. D:]

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-03 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
The difficulties that the night produced meant nothing to the hooded figure who floated listlessly over the bodies, stopping only to kneel over and take a bloodied limb into consideration with horrifically gentle hands before meandering off again. He had repeated the measure for every cooling corpse for what felt like an eternity, yet patience had always been a kind friend that kept this reaper precise and therefore constant.

By the time night had fallen those gloved hands were bathed in the layers of red of a thousand victims. And it was to say that the ends of those deep shades of blue that poked from the hood was also smeared with blood. Yet the Nobody paid no mind to any of it. Was he supposed to care? It didn't seem all too necessary...

Though even then the description of 'layers' felt so underrated to the true stench that emanated from these befallen cadavers, these once possible subjects for experimentation. One couldn't do much to a body already mutilated beyond identification. The sight of it all was enough to coax a small smile every once in a while. For the creatures of light and darkness were always forced to cease at least sometime in infinity. The same fate as a Nobody.

It didn't matter what their specific affinity was; it was all the same when they were dead. Ceasing to exist.

But until the time came for him to share his last breath, he would continue to walk amongst the living and the dead to conjoin the two in a matured bridge destined to collapse into the river.

Night had fallen far too soon, temporarily halting a more thorough measurement of the number of bodies that resided around him. By then he had returned to the center of the diluted circle partially washed out by the sporadic drizzling. Yet it still remained, stepping inside these boundaries and looking to the clouded sky.

... If he sensed Anti's presence, Saïx made no notion to reveal it, posture elegant in contradiction to the scenery around him.

Though one shouldn't have been surprised if the Nobody had expected the latter to come all along.

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-03 10:00 am (UTC)(link)
He didn't turn when Anti 'greeted' him simplistically, far too immersed at the fake Moon that lingered in the sky. It wasn't as beautiful as Kingdom Hearts, but Saïx would have to pick up the pieces given to him and slide them together for his own personal interpretation. He supposed it was enough to reward a meager sense of temporary content...

The Nobody's amber eyes slid from the sky and he finally turned to gaze at the boy, glowing passively in the Night; the only other source of light in this Darkness.

...

"You were 'created' not just from treachery. But also irrationality. And complete foolishness." It was blunt, yet even that silk voice wavered somewhat at the word 'creation'. It was a detestable word, but there was no lie; in the end Anti was nothing more than just matter wasted for a sloppy revenge. Could there possibly be more attached? Heh, Saïx was unsure if Axel could decipher any farther than brash knowledge.

"I will not lie to you: I do not favor Axel's motives, and so I do not favor your existence. However..." His eyes didn't turn away. "These words are not my own. I simply depicted them from Axel’s rambling. And from what’s given to me I can only make out that you were ‘made’ out of spite to experiment and see whether or not you were able to annihilate my Superior and that alone. A selfish reason, is it not?”

Even as he spoke of this Saïx did not step back from the boy, showing no sense of fear, nor any sense of relief at his presence. There was nothing but indifference etched on his face; how he had always since viewed life around him. Lethargy.

“Do these answers please you? Or were they too blunt for your liking?”

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-03 05:24 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm very aware of that fact," Saïx calmly brought his hand to his face, dully admiring the sheen of blood that dribbled and dripped down the sleeve of his coat. "You were made for the position, were you not? Axel would have been pleased."

As previously stated before, the Nobody did not care at all for friendship. And in many cases friendships were built from lies. To 'beat around the bush' persay, was nothing more than just a waste of breath and gave way to lack of respect of a person's intentions. So one might have to ask: did Anti want the truth? Or did he strive for what he wanted to hear?

Saïx did not answer Anti's heated question right away, almost as if he hadn't heard the question asked at all. Idly, the Nobody pressed the tip of a bloodied finger against his lips, pulling away a moment afterwards and licked off whatever stubbornly stuck on. A concoction of death. A Bloody Mary taken literally. Whichever.

"A Nobody is 'created'" Again Saïx showed distaste for the word. "When the Heart is cast away from the body and soul, leaving a vessel at its absence. Though it could also form through artificial means, such as yourself. However, the reason as to why I am one is unimportant. For in the end, our fate is always the same."

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-03 07:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Whatever the boy was trying to explain was no longer noticed by the apathetic Nobody, or maybe it was just the simple action of ignoring. What he spoke was what he knew purely from fact alone, and it was obvious that Saïx was objective with his answers, even if he might deem them as 'his opinion'. So in the end it was as if Anti's words held no importance, as painful as the truth was. But alas, lost causes were never meant to care in the first place. Either of them.

Concluding that Anti was merely talking to himself, Saïx took a single step back to leave the bloody circle barren again, almost as if motioning that this meeting had ended. Yet it was far from over when his fingers were suddenly held captive by the boy's dribbling mouth. But unlike most, he remained as impassive to these sickening acts.

One might have also deemed Anti as nothing more than a hypocrite, hateful for any contact from anyone and yet practically grinding the inside of his moistened mouth over those refined fingertips. It was enough to coax a series of maddening laughter from anyone with a sadistic sense of humor.

Saïx merely continued to watch this onslaught.

"I was saving that."

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-04 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
Saïx had closed his eyes for a moment in time as he felt Anti begin to scratch and pull at his coat whilst lapping the moonlit strands growing from his scalp, reopening to idly let them wander at such primitive actions. And it was only when the latter had finally snapped back into reality did he speak again, neither taking a step away as well when Anti became wary of their close contact.

"It's not a loss worth avenging." Eyes befallen at the parts of his hair that clung together from spit and blood, he brought his 'clean' hand over the hood of his coat and pulled it back to reveal the waterfall of hair hidden underneath; tresses reflecting the light of the fake moon, heightening his enigmatic relationship with the Selene in the sky.

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-04 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, sometimes being human felt so overrated. It was as if sacrificing any sort of compassion and emotion was what made Nobodies spiral up the stairs of evolution to waters beyond imaginable. They were stronger, faster, and more efficient in every single action that they accomplished. Yet here they were, struggling to find their one true weakness, and for what? Mortality? Impurity?

It was only truly logical to someone if they've wandered through their suffering for all these years... Knew what it felt like to become so empty and void of emotion that the reason to live was to be reminded every day.

After a while, even death looked like nothing more than a sweet release. Sometimes temptation grew...

"Your moment of genocide is one to be taken into consideration. I speak for the Organization when I say the public of our Project should not be provoked into fear and desperation." Those amber eyes flickered down at the doubtful face of the demonic youth.

"In laymen terms, someone has to clean up the mess you've made."

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-04 07:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Even before Anti had finished his cocky statement, Saïx had already brushed passed the boy as if he hadn't heard the shrill laughter, the arrogant chuckles, nor the bitter attitude the youth pulsated. As someone more sophisticated might have recognized, they would conclude that this was nothing more than preoperational and egocentrism at its worst. And it was best not to comply to these faulty assumptions swirling inside the boy's mind to only further add onto his confirmation bias.

So the Nobody did what he was best unconditionally, and merely remained indifferent to all of this. Yet through his unconscious thought he had very much expected for the blood of the fallen to seep away from their bodies and create a ring around the sole survivors; boiling and sputtering into the chilled night sky.

And as if the blood on his other gloved hand was unnoticeable, Saïx calmly ran his fingers through the hair partially covering his face, smearing Sin over each strand as he pulled it back away from him before kneeling to examine another body. What was defecated the moment after death was rotting in the air, though through the specific scent Saïx was able to depict that he had counted all of these. And so, letting his amber eyes wander, he started off towards another direction to continue his work; blood on his hands layering once more.

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-05 10:35 am (UTC)(link)
With foreboding thoughts crossing his agile mind, Saïx merely paused in his movements before he spun in a complete circle; the mess of death blurring in his amber vision. Sometimes death was beautiful if cradled with care, yet the true violence of its nature could be deciphered in these faceless inhabitants of this daunting city.

There was that elongated minute in time where nothing was spoken between the two, the air pregnant with silence. But the occasion was proper; everything spoke for itself really.

Now, it wasn't to say that Saïx's attention calmly wavered to Anti's actions as his foot scraped along the cobblestone floor. Yet he was aware as to where the latter stood, and in the end floated listlessly across the ground; the tips of his boots scraping against the pools of blood until the Nobody reached the symbolic design he had left behind earlier. His head tilted slightly, as if taking in another angle to depict the new number with care.

... And then, all of a sudden, the corners of his lips tugged upwards, revealing a small smile. Whether it be from the latter's words or actions, or very well likely both, one wouldn't know.

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-06 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
Even Saïx would admit that the mimic of a smile was rather of a surprise, though not one completely unwanted. His movements were fluent as his eyes left the golden hues of Anti and gazed up at the clearing Night sky, the chill of darkness seemingly forgotten. He circled around the boy in a mourner's pace, looking very much like he was contemplating the question presented before him.

And when he stopped, it was to concentrate on the moon's illuminating outline, very much like studying intently on a work of art previously mutilated by unwanted hands.

He finally lowered his eyes to answer, though not in a way that one might have expected.

"Would you run away, or rush forward?"

The meaning might have felt blunt, but with the Nobody there were worlds beyond worlds of interpretations that could have configured with such a seemingly simple question.

One thing held true however; he had asked out of pure curiosity himself.

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-06 07:02 am (UTC)(link)
Saïx nodded.

"I prefer it." The answer held a simple meaning and an even simpler undertone, maybe even to the extent that it was the only proper answer to answer with. Blatancy could very easily be the worst or best to give, depending on the situation to use it in. People become afraid of these one-lined comments that could describe beyond the reach of stars.

Yet it was not that they feared; it was how they interpreted it to be as.

"What I only ask of you..." Those amber eyes flickered from that calm revere. "Is for you to keep the promise in same terms as they and I."

He turned to face Anti completely, unable to gaze up at this imposter of a moon anymore for that evening; casting a shadow at his front side besides the glow of his eyes in this darkness.

"If you were to break it, then all of this will cease."

Even lovers tore themselves away from a single broken promise.

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-09 12:32 pm (UTC)(link)
A privilege? What he said was, quite simply, the cold hard truth. Saïx had grown accustomed to Anti's presence, yet it was a 'bond' that could break in a heartbeat the moment the latter lost his demeanor to be trusting and respectful. Though this would be the last time he reminded it to the boy, but maybe he would finally understand that all he said contained no jokes.

"I understand that." Was a simple answer, knowing the consequences he had to come across to gain some kind of ground. One could only hope that Number IV and XII would keep their thoughts as thoughts alone. To lose more members of their Organization was not a thought he would've enjoyed to dwell upon. Yet the irony of him standing in the middle of death was as plain in sight as the night sky.

It was common sense to figure that Axel was not with Number VI when Anti set him free, or else the boy would've been too busy with his own devices to come back to the scene of the crime.

He would inform the Superior of this later...

"May I ask what this promise is exactly?"

[OOC: Ah, try to bear with me, my posts are gonna be more on the sucky side until I'm able to slap myself back into focus. D; ]

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-09 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
All other dialogue set aside, all that mattered at that moment was that another member was spared from death. Though for the reason, however, he felt that he did not need to embroil upon as long as it ensured safety.

So instead he gave Anti his much desired answer.

"I have the others searching for him, though we've yet to find him." It was simple but sophisticated in a way, and unfortunately it was all that he could really impart upon the boy. And until they could found a lead it would stay that way. But Axel wasn't entirely neat when it came to covering his tracks, so sooner or later he would get caught.

And afterwards? Well... Hell was never a pretty sight even if it was frozen.

"Is that all that you desire for now?"

[identity profile] silent-selene.livejournal.com 2006-04-16 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
Saïx did not even not in compliance to the boy's words before he was consumed in his own element, completely vanishing from sight only moments later. A sharp wind almost immediately flew over his body, entangling into his blood crusted blue strands as if to run its fingers through.

Amber hues gazed listlessly at this redundant scene. A movie running for all eternity, reaching the end before recycling its contents.

And so the stoic warrior gazed upon the moonlight, before walking away from this past...

Until he found what was his again, things would remain the same, continue the same, end the same, and so on and so forth.

... Maybe, in a way, he has come to accept this.

Yet would he be accepted back?

Saïx spoke no more, shadows looming over him, and finally disappeared into the night.