The onmyouji chuckles, rather bitterly even though he tries not to sound too cynical. Subaru does not want Belle to dislike him, not really. "It's not because it's a secret," he throws Belle a small smile, "I don't want you to worry." He can just imagine Hokuto bonking his head and rambling about how she would worry anyway, now that he has told her. "But you'll worry anyway, because you're that kind of person," he finds it ironic that someone else had said the same thing to him once, too.

"Sei-san wanted to kill me because I saw him murder someone when I was six," he explains, absently running his finger on the rim of his glass of water. "I escaped him nine years ago," with this he looks darkly to the rippling water in his glass, "before he left, he... he looked at me in this mocking way." Subaru waits for a few moment before uttering the last few words, "as if I'm not worth killing." Subaru realizes that he left out the story about how his sister tried to save him, and maybe he should tell her that too. But he has told her way too much, now Belle is going to worry over him and it would be Subaru's fault that Belle is not smiling. He lets the silence linger, afraid that breaking it would somehow make Belle despise him.

He looks up from his glass of water and throws a fake smile at Belle, "that was nine years ago, don't worry." He clears his throat nervously, "So... tell me your story." Subaru hopes that Belle will forget his story and move on with hers. Perhaps her story is a happy one, which would be wonderful.