She is naively optimistic, not that it is a bad thing, he was like that once too and he wishes he can be like that once more. Then again, maybe he is still stupidly optimistic; thinking that one day he really can be worthy enough for the man he loves to actually look at him and see something more than just another object to be eliminated. Subaru is still so idiotically optimistic to think that maybe Seishiro is also here in Paixao for him to hunt down.
"Some people from my home are here," he says in agreement to her theory, "maybe someone from yours is here too." Subaru lets himself wallow in his own despair, but he hates dragging another person down with him. The Lady Sumeragi, his grandmother, said that Hokuto was barely herself those days when he would not speak; those days before her death. He hates making others sad. If he could, Subaru would take up everyone's sufferings so that only he himself suffers and nobody else. He really would.
Subaru gives Belle a smile, a barrier to keep her away from his dark thoughts, so that she will only see the smile and not Subaru hiding behind it. "We get off here," he tells Belle, noticing that they have arrived at Paixao Central Station. "There are three eating places to choose from..." he trails off, flippin open his journal to check the names again, "Porfavore's, Cafe Ersesat and this hotel called Actua Are. Pick one, randomly is alright too." Subaru is never good at making choices anyway, he usually just lets himself wander off and go into the nearest restaurant.
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"Some people from my home are here," he says in agreement to her theory, "maybe someone from yours is here too." Subaru lets himself wallow in his own despair, but he hates dragging another person down with him. The Lady Sumeragi, his grandmother, said that Hokuto was barely herself those days when he would not speak; those days before her death. He hates making others sad. If he could, Subaru would take up everyone's sufferings so that only he himself suffers and nobody else. He really would.
Subaru gives Belle a smile, a barrier to keep her away from his dark thoughts, so that she will only see the smile and not Subaru hiding behind it. "We get off here," he tells Belle, noticing that they have arrived at Paixao Central Station. "There are three eating places to choose from..." he trails off, flippin open his journal to check the names again, "Porfavore's, Cafe Ersesat and this hotel called Actua Are. Pick one, randomly is alright too." Subaru is never good at making choices anyway, he usually just lets himself wander off and go into the nearest restaurant.