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Character(s): Tohru, Graywolf, anyone who wants to come.
Content: Tohru arrives in Paixao, confused and upset, through the Vanaheim gate.
Setting: Vanaheim Gate
Time: Very early saturday morning.
Warnings: None that are predictible as of yet. But I doubt there will be much to be afraid of. :]

Tohru woke up in her bed, feeling rather hot, mess of brown hair tangled in yellow sheets. Turning over to look down at the floor, where a sleeping bag and a figure with greyish hair was softly breathing. Good.., she sighed in relief, at least someone's sleeping tonight...She had asked Yuki to sleep in her room that night, for most nights she had horrible nightmares.

Running a sweaty hand through her hair, quickly taking a dark blue ribbon from her bedside table, she put her hair back. Tohru also grabbed the small frame of her mother's picture, feeling safer in the dark with her there. Softly pulling the covers off of her and standing, she tiptoed over Yuki with small bare feet, and left her room.

She walked down the hall, as if in a daze. The sun hadn't yet come up, and she could hear typing coming from the office downstairs. Ever since they buried Kyo, Shigure had been writing almost all night, every night. Tohru always did her best to bring Shigure coffee. And she would tonight, too, right after she got some water.

Tohru moved to the kitchen, dressed in her white silky nightgown and half-smiled at how obnoxiously clean the place was. She had occupied herself constantly recently, unable to think of anything else but her guilt. Tohru started to make a pot of coffee for Shigure, and got out a cup of water for herself. Her mind began to race. She hated that.

Oh mom.. is this how you felt when dad died?

Tohru shook the horrible grief away with a physical motion of shaking her head. Just on cue, the coffee was done, and she brought a cup to the office, tapping lightly on the door and making her way in when Shigure answered.

She stopped in suprise at the sight in front of her. The room she had tidied up just that evening was completely littered once more with torn papers, pens, and newspapers and magazines. Shigure's eyes were bloodshot, and he looked rather tired, but he managed a kind smile when Tohru came in. He told her that everything was fine. Tohru knew that act, she was the pro at it, but she simply gave Shigure his coffee and said goodnight, leaving him to be alone.

She felt a bit dizzy, walking back upstairs towards her room. Something made her feel like she needed to go to Kyo's room, so she did, as if she couldn't help it. Scanning the room with tired and watery eyes, Tohru let out a small wimper. She hadn't cleaned in here since he died, and dust was collecting everywhere. Anxiety took over, and she dropped the cup of water on the floor, it clanking loudly, spilling everywhere. She instantly moved into the room, finding the duster and cleaning like crazy. Washing the floors. Tidying. Organizing the mess that he made. She began to be frantic, panicking. It had to be clean.. it had to be..

She collapsed after several minutes in tears. It was the first real cry she had after Kyo left. Her heart ached, her body ached. Kyo, She cried harder. Kyo, I need you Kyo... I can't do this without you...!

Her sobs quieted, but her vision blurred. She heard a muffled noise that sounded as if Yuki had rushed out of her room.

But she was far away now... far, far...

Two trees. Two huge trees. The fruit on it looked fake and glossy. She looked up, as she was laying on the ground. A gate. Tohru sat up quickly, wiping the salty tears from her red face.

"..Where...?"

Tohru stood and stumbled, making her way up to a person at the desk. They asked her name and she studdered nervously. She clung desperately to the small frame that included her mother's picture, and had trouble taking everything in around her.

"Tor.. T-T-Tohru H-Honda.."

Still dazed, she tried to ask a question, but was given a small computer and some papers. Moving through the gate she looked around in wonder, before falling to her knees in defeat.

Oh mom.. what just happened..?

She began to cry.